I’m sorry for my quiet, my absence, my lack of musings. Life has been unbearably difficult, and I’m constantly battling giving into the inevitable burn-out I dread is coming. Do you ever feel like you’ve given so much already, all that’s left is an automaton version of yourself operating on autopilot? Like you’ve suddenly reached your ultimate capacity of capabilities, your conscious turns off and your unconscious takes control? Do you become terrified when this happens? When you’ve ...
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Respect My Time
I’ve had a startling epiphany. Last night, I was in a meeting which was supposed to last at the most one hour. It lasted three. At about two hours into the meeting, I shut down. Emotionally. I couldn’t allow myself to indulge the rage and indignation I felt rising, swelling within me. Sure, I managed to engage conceptually for the remainder of the meeting, but the longer it elapsed, the less I presented and the more I retracted into myself. Afterwards, as I retrospectively sifted ...
Growing Confidence
Jumping right in, I’m not quite sure where to begin. I’ve been in the middle of chaos for over a month now. May and June are always terribly busy for me. Too many birthdays and occasions. This year I even had two nieces and one nephew graduate from their perspective schools. Oy! Unfortunately, this has left little room in my brain for musings with the maelstrom I’ve been foolishly, aimlessly dog-paddling in for weeks now. Now, none of this is all bad, mind you. In fact, I think it all to be ...
Stuck and Restless
I woke up this morning with a racing mind, trying to keep up, all the while forgetting what I’m supposed to do today, if anything. All I can focus on is everything which needs adjusting, improving, fixing. I need more sleep and need to stop staying up so late. I need a better diet with less carbs and cheese with more fruits and vegetables. I need to be more active and exercise. I’m not getting any younger, and I need to start taking care of myself now. I need to stop being so late to ...
Embrace the Wind
Some of you might have noticed in my earlier post from today I mentioned how the two months have seemed bizarrely busy in a stressful, sometimes painful way. I also realised it’s been a while; I haven’t written as I once did; I’ve been negligent. Thus, I thought I would pause and share some of what’s been making Life seem messy, maybe even a brilliant one. To briefly recap: the new year began; at the end of the month I went out of town (that was an adventure, especially when my car decided to ...