To begin, let me first admit my consistency with this blog has completely dissolved. (That is, if I ever had any to begin with.) However, there is a reasonable explanation, not merely a lack of discipline. No, it’s not Life’s circumstance distracting me; though, change is always eminent and inevitable. It’s also not a lack of desire either. What is actually a secret, such a well-kept secret I’ve been guarding it for quite some time (try almost 12 years). Only this what shall remain ...
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Living on the Edge
Oh, today I am not in a good mood... I'm beyond angst. Living in a proleptic state can be unbearable sometimes, surviving somewhere between the "now" and "not yet". Though, after years of dwelling here between the lines, I find my reality less daunting, even in moments such as this. Like an acrobat who's trained to walked on a thin wire suspended hundreds of feet in the air, I've grown accustom to my new habitat. I've acclimated to this freakish elevation. Sure, one false step and ...
Get to Know Me: Autumn Inspired
I don't know why I've taken the time to fill this out, but I did. Maybe it's that I'm feeling festive or because I'm bored at work (shh...don't tell my boss), but regardless, here it is. (I tried my best to hold back the snark, but there might be a few exceptions...) Frost -- if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say? Don't give up. Your pain will make you stronger. I promise: it's worth it. All of it. Maple -- Is there a hobby/skill that you’ve always wanted ...
Returning from Neverland
In my most recent post, I stumbled upon something, a nugget (to me) amongst my musings. It was one of those, “Aha!” moments when my racing mind suddenly epiphanized in a bright burst of light and clarity. To quote a poet (inside joke), I wrote, “Why else become an adult but to find my place in this vast world?” It was this sudden thought which brought with it a symphony of colours brilliantly exploding in my mind’s eye as I watched all these dots simultaneously connect. It was like watching ...
Breathing Again
As the silence continues to wash over me, the rush of the High Holy Day season quieting, I find so much has happened in my life in just this first month of the new year. Usually, I'm one who doesn't just merely shy away from change. I flee. Kick. Scream. Beg. Plead. Fight. I try everything in my power to not allow change. Of course, I've already written about this. Why be so repetitive? Perhaps because I continue to amaze myself. Now, before you pass judgement on me for being ...
